Nightmares

I wonder what it takes for me to rewrite history, undo wrongdoings and just have things back to normal again. I yearn for your touch, your scent, your smile just to wake up to find that I have the bed all to myself.

I wished I could erase some scenes and memories. The disappointment in your eyes, the silence you fed me when I was helpless and dying for some words of comfort, the sound of your engine leaving my garage.

I miss the sight of your clothes strewn all over my room, the way you carry me when I'm drunk, your laugh, your wink. I would give everything to fix this disarray I caused just to get your nod of approval again. But is my realisation too late?!?!?